Step Forward Into The Hurt

When you have to step forward even knowing full and well that it will hurt like you know it will hurt. Imagine you have done 150 air squats and it is the day after and your DOMs is so profound that when you use your quads (The large muscles on the front of your upper leg) they feel like they might explode. Sure you take some Advil and do some stretching but you know that …

Have You Been Showered By Sewage

People are small and insignificant while being galaxies worth of complexity and the arbiters of purpose and significance. I remember feeling so small in my windowless office and daily routine. I watched so many days go by crunching data and doing what I was told. I have kids and a wife and am constantly ashamed of how that seems like not enough. How raising my son is not as fulfilling as I think it should …

A Sweet Sadness Over The Horizon

Sometimes I am overwhelmed by the passage of time and all of the things that means. Such a sweet sadness that is always mixed with deep joy. How I wish I could pour this out on the earth with all of it’s concepts and attached thoughts and perspective. Watching my children grow and watching the ever increasing number of gray beard hairs spread across get a since of impending significance. Not that things are devoid …

Is The Drain Really Unclogged?

Is the drain really unclogged The week started normally enough Monday morning breakfast and work, then Crossfit. That is where things went a little askew from the normal grind. See a spur of the moment obstacle course and this old mans endocrine system aliened like the planets on some cosmic solstice. I felt spry and ready for the class and decided that a vigorous step up onto a thirty inch box was exactly what I …

Breathing Strange Air

Those Hipsters with their guitars, banjos and beards bring a tear to my eye every time Hipsters and their guitars, banjos and rough voices make me tear up every time. I listened to a song that started out with the words “Old gas station hasn’t changed in a decade” and I almost lost it. That is it though; when certain areas of your inner being have been exposed to the blistering winds of tragedy and …

When It Is Lost

A Security Blanket

A leather bound journal. Really it is the security blanket of a man. An object that carries dreams, thoughts and the promise that no matter what thought, event, or dream that might slip in-between the plates of my skull can be written down and kept in good care. I lost it recently for a few days it was missing and this reality nagged me, scraping the backs of my knees so that at any idle …

Responsibility

A Personal Responsibility Personal responsibility is a funny thing, a virtue but still a funny thing. It calls us to take responsibility for things that every logical conclusion would drive us to blame others. All the while personal responsibility strokes our sweat soaked hair telling us that it doesn’t make what was done to you right but you have to own your reaction and the consequences. This has been a fun lesson to teach my …

And So We Are Pruned

We Have Eben-Ezers For Children An Eben-Ezer is a pile of stones that followers of God would raise at locations of significance. Abraham raised one at the location where he was asked to sacrifice Isac, Gideon raised one where he met the angel, and Samuel took a stone and set it up between Mizpah and Shen. If you are in church you probably have heard the word in the famous hymn “Come, thou Fount of …

My Children Love Games and I Hate Tyranny

My children love games. Video games, hide and go seek, made up games that always end in tragedy and board games. Recently my boys hit the age where their cognitive skills far out weigh the intrigue cooties can bring and they have craved more mental stimulation. I taught them to play Risk and now they never stop asking to play Risk. Risk is great except when you play Risk you have to take a vacation …

Niblit – I Don’t Owe You

What Was Niblit Niblit started out as this thought that I might read more if I suddenly built a website around my reading. Well I have kids, so I read more but still don’t have the time or wherewithal to write a book review or report. So Niblit was D.O.A. within days of the first post. What Will It Be I really like the logo and spent a lot of time dreaming about something like …