Doing Really Hard Things and Failing Constantly or How To Burpee Your Life

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“What is a Burpee” Quentin asked? Quentin’s Unrequited Angst responded, “Terrible but necessary. Oh, your suffering will be delicious and worth it!” Quentin wiped the accumulating sweat from his brow and took a deep breath. The failer was not spectacular. In fact, no would even know it had happened.  Yet the push off the ground and the climbing back up to his proverbial feet was painful. Then came the next failure. What is a man to do …

Intermingled Like Coffee and Cream

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Inwardly humans all have a very similar structure. We see this not in assumptions but in patterns. When one person is depressed there are categorized reasons for this state and related treatments. Another way to say this is that humans have a baseline and from there we deviate into unique personalities and viewpoints. I am a plain man so this is based mostly on observation and experience. I have have seen more signs of mental …

An Honest Withdraw

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Dear Reader, I really do try and keep the writing less meta and more substantive. I just don’t think I can today. Social media and these algorithmicly generated wasteland of echoing platitudes have just about got me. Don’t get me wrong I am the one that indulged no one made me log in. Yet after shuttling in more and more of the content I just can’t anymore. I think it is time to disappear from …

On the edge of the tear monsters are born

Man fears death that is why governments, religions, and corporations exist. We want to control people because we fear death. ~ A Friend of Mine It’s not that we fear death it is that eternity has been set in the heart of man. We intrinsically know there is more to be had and we desperately want it. We also know that a kind of death will be required to obtain it and there lies the …

Shocking Splendor

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When the void sat silent and the only thing that hovered above the deep was the one that defined it, was the deep surprised when he finally spoke “those” words? Was it sure of it’s purpose at that moment? Can creation even feel or know? Did it not make sense or have a finitely discernible purpose until something was created that could see, know and discern? Not until humans were created, by the same creative …

When I Burst Forth

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He blew on the tinny embers that had been coaxed into life. They would glow bright orange as his breath passed over them but subside when he took a breath. The office had been stuffy the whole week. It was filled with the thick fog of the grind and it choked his mind and his vision of the future. His wife had see the dull glaze it left in his eyes and insisted he get …

Doing Things Worth The Time – NaNoWriMo

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Doing things. This is what our temporal waking hours consist of. Manipulating matter with our hands to actuate the ever expanding universes that we imagine are behind our eyes but actually exist in some unexplained mechanism. Science can only describe this expanse of thought and consciousness as quantum but any child would identify it as your soul. I completed NaNoWriMo. I wrote a novel’s worth of words in twenty five days. I planned for at …

NaNoWriMo Kick Off – Pathfinder: Affinity

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What is NaNoWriMo Well today I start on my fourth attempt at writing a book. Why tomorrow you ask? Well it is because tomorrow starts the month long event of NaNoWriMo an event where a mere mortal writes a 50K word book in a month. It seems like a bad idea honestly. However, it gives me a deadline and a word goal. For someone like me who has tried three times already and learned a …

Straight White Male Thoughts

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White privilege; for a while I saw it as a phrase, a concept that was being used to painted me in a bad light. Then I realized, wow I do have white privilege and on top of that I am a straight white male like Dana Carvey Netflix Special. My perspective is not invalid it gives me a vantage from on high. Suddenly I realized that my points of view carry so much MORE weight …

He Sat Crying

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He Sat Crying He sat crying in the garage for a little while he cried. A mind like an otherworldly accuser constantly on him. You are always on the bad side of things. He is so young still in elementary school but he is smart. He can’t seem to shake the feeling that he is good enough or smart enough or able to make a friend. No matter how many friends he has he only …