Wonders of this present world

Having kids has been one of the most interesting and inspiring things I have ever participated in. Participation is the right word too. To a certain degree, you have a say in how you conduct yourself. You have a say in how you dress, what you call yourself, are you a mean person, or a nice person. Many things about ourselves we have say over. However, the truly interesting things about a person are those …

Why Do

Why do anything at all? Why draw, build, create, carry on, or endure. Is there something to gain? Is there something beyond? Perhaps you take the view of the naturalist and see the genetic code of the human race as the thing that is beyond. As the thing that should be preserved above all else. A linage of thought and understanding suddenly awash in the nihilism of Weston and a universe that will eventually burn …

Where To From Here

The cliff shimmered of electric obsidian. Colors moved through the darkness ahead and cosmic leviathans shifted in their sleep. Is this really what I wanted? Did I want to hurl myself into the strange unknown with all its transcendent machinations? Could I even predict how I might change? What if I came out the other side something or someone I would hate today? The nebula pulsed wordlessly asking me if I had only come to …

Strange Death of Childhood or Anxiousness

Anxiety is a funny thing. I went through life up until I was about thirty-seven with little to no anxiety. I was pretty chill. Now I did have an anger problem early on but some confession and acknowledgment of the problem took care of it. You can only have an anger problem as long as you do not admit you have one and as long as you never admit it hurts you and the others …

Fasting to Greater Heights

Denial of something the body needs seems counter intuative in todays western world. We do not deny ourselves anything. Surgary drinks, one night stands, gudges, violence, and rancor of the highest order. We have made it a habit to gorge ourselves with somthing even if it is the blood of those we deam enemies. Fasting turns that on its head. Removing food from yourselfe for an extended period of time with the intent of spiritual …